Sorry

Sorry Babe, but i seriously do not believe that drinking games do not a good party make.

Christmas Party!

For this Christmas, there was surprisingly little alcohol.
And yet it was fun.

I believe that there's no need to equate alcohol with fun.
I seriously wonder if I should go.

F**K

Damn it, 5 more days.
And I still do not know what to wear.

Sunset

Sunrise

A380

Slightly bigger screens. Luggage storage at the side. Slightly more leg space. New Krisworld interface.

Blur or Blonde?

I'm not alluding to myself with the above title. The title is referring to a traumatic experience at the cinema. We were early, and it was free seating, so we settled into a nice 3 seater thinking that no one would disturb us. Regretfully that was not to be the case. almost upon the contact of my bum to my seat, there were these two guys sitting behind me going on about the above topic, blonde or blur? about one of them. One kept up with the "I'm blonde" (i.e. dumb) the other can denying, saying "No, you're just blur"

I sat there for a total of 10 seconds, before I turned to Jayna and said, " let's change seats."

If i had sat there for the whole movie, i might have turned blonde.

As a side note, Elizabeth: The Golden Age is pretty good. That woman sure can act.

Birthday

let's do a quick loot count this year.

A) hongbaos from siblings
b) a chain that goes round the neck
c) a bafuku voodoo doll
d) a singlet from mooks
e) eye cream(?) from body shop

pathethic huh?

But the main thing is I love every single one of them.
So thanks to everyone :)

Hysterics?

"Mum, My business trip has been extended another week."

"Why? Don't you miss home?"

...

It's beyond my control. I blame the school holidays in Australia for my predicament.
Anyway, I'll only be back in Singapore on the 19th of October.

If there's anything you want from Oz, just email or leave a message.

Striving

I hate arguments, I hate confrontations. I'm going to be pretty broke when my credit card bill comes in for the coming month. But I'm just thankful that no one was hurt, well except for the poor car.

Sometimes it's hard to live up to people's expectation of you. They want you to be strong, to be authoritative, to be assertive, to be caring, to be thoughtful. Yet throughout my 25 years of existence, I've been anything but that.

I do not know what I want to be. What I want to do.

You said life will be fine without money. but think about it, how long will we remain happy together surviving on bread and water only? I do not even want to think about it.

I think I'm getting tired, very tired of striving to be someone I am not.

Sunset

What I'm looking forward to

Disappointment begins with 'r'

Imagine this, waking up at 5.30 in the morning to go for the Mizuno run.
Imagine the disappointment to find that it's raining heavily.
Sigh

Message

I do not know when you'll see this. BUT...
Have fun over there!
Remember to send address and contacts over!
I'll miss you, my favorite bitching partner.
My fashion consultant.
My confidante.
My best friend.

CK

Everything

I'm listening to this song at the moment.

It's nice.

The lyrics are a little soppy, but i still like it.

Am I your everything?

Are you my everything?

Every time I listen to this song, I think of you.

Soppy? yea.

A1

No. Not the flash in the pan boy band.

But the grade that my tuition charge got for his Mathematics Papers.

He's a smart kid!

Bag Poll

Bags!
Undecided between this two bags.
Think I'll take another week to think about it.

I'm lousy when it comes to making decisions. Even a simple thing like a bag can keep me occupied for ages. I love the crumpler design, but the one from manhattan looks good too, and it has plenty of compartments, which is cool. They both look big enough. But the manhattan one does not come with a shoulder pad. Meaning I'll have to pay some more if I want a shoulder pad. Plus it does look a bit plain.

The Crumpler has only a few compartments, but I think they should be enough for keys, change and wallet. It has nice a big compartment for gym stuff. Its design is pretty nice, but it does cost a lot for a simple messenger bag. However it comes with a shoulder pad. And it does have reflective tape on it. But it is getting a bit common, everyone seems to be carrying one.

They're both waterproof. So that's good.

I guess I'll have to think on it for a little while more.

What do you think? Which one would you get?

ICQ

I remember when we first met.

We were still using ICQ.
MSN was just taking off.

Friendster was not yet hot.
when we were just freshmen.

Time passes so quickly.
And I do love you.

Palms

How do you know that someone is the one?

Your heart beats faster and your palms start to sweat.

What if the person you're with no longer cause your heart to flutter and your palms to get wet? What do you do?

Speaking of palms, went to Sentosa for two consecutive days. Had a great time on both occasions, although the feel of both was slightly different. Saturday was less tanning and more interaction. Today's trip felt like a trip that was pure suntanning. The difference, I was out with someone who loved the Sun too. We had a great time tanning and chatting at KM8, a beach bar in Sentosa. we decided to pamper ourselves by getting deck chairs instead of lying on the sand. Honestly, that is the only way to tan.

We talked, Jayna and me. Chatted under the Sun about everything we could think of, from exes to presents, about our futures, about her birthday. It was nice, thanks J.

Saturday was fun too, but in a more guys beach outing kind of way. Where tanning was merely a distraction. Thanks guys, it was great fun too.

I no longer have sweaty palms, and I don't remember a time when it happened. I think that sweaty palm thing is just hogwash, you just know when someone is for you, no physical manifestations required.

Random

I wish I could be like Sophie and not be like Amanda.

背影-王菲

Does loving someone mean you have to be together all the time? Does it mean that you have to be their ideal person? Does it mean you have to do everything together?

I used to think that way.

Un-Air-able Banned Mythbuster Fart episode

Part one

Part two

Spin

Puppy tale (1)

There was once a little puppy, who had an owner who loved him a lot. The little puppy in turn loved the owner back as much as he could. The puppy loved going to the park for walks and to play. But gradually, the owner started to bring the puppy out less and less often, because of work, friends and family requirements. The puppy loved going to the beach, loved the feel of sand under his paws as he ran, loved the sound of the waves and the Sun. The owner rarely brought the puppy to the seaside, finding it a hassle. One fine sunny day, the owner left for work, leaving the puppy to his own devices. The puppy stared out from the window, thinking that it was a fine day to go to the beach. Feeling dejected, the puppy went to door to await the return of his owner, only to find that the door was ajar. The owner had left the door open in his haste.

The puppy poked his head out and felt the warm sunshine on his nose. He sniffed. And he sniffed again. There! The salty scent of the sea. The puppy put one paw out, sniff. The second paw followed, sniff. He had to follow that scent. Follow that scent to the beach. And he did, slowly at first, for the scent was weak, but as it got stronger, the puppy started to run.

The puppy ran and ran, suddenly the ground beneath his paws felt different. It was sand. He looked up and he saw the sea. He was there, he was at the beach. Tail wagging, he made his way down to the water's edge. And he sat there, looking out to the sea. He turned back, expecting his owner to be there. No one was there. Suddenly he felt terribly alone. He might be at the beach, but there was no one to play with him. He sat there, not knowing what to do.

Want you to know

Rubber Ducky

I find this terribly funny

Lessons

Today I learned three things.

1) Always bring money/ezlink card on a run through unfamiliar route.
2) Avoid running into small roads thinking they'll lead somewhere.
3) Check and check the map for a new route carefully before trying it.

Employed

I have a job! Finally. It's near home. I'm thinking it's a good thing, but something a friend said made me reconsider. "If you go to town, you'll be traveling away from home." Isn't that a depressing thought?

I just hope I'll be able to handle the job.
And since my workplace is so near, I'm planning to run home after work everyday.(or as often as I can). Now I'll start to look for a bag which will allow me to do that.

Someone said we're drifting apart. Honestly I feel that too. It has never been a problem that I'm doing Engineering and you're in Law, that you're bored when i talk about my work, that I'm bored when you talk about your work. It doesn't even matter that you're going to earn more than I am. (actually it does matter). Differences in opinion about religion didn't matter. (yet, it feels as though it'll matter soon). It doesn't matter that much that your parents hate me.( Although it probably should)

What am i trying to say? If I can't make it work with you, I think I'll just give up on finding the one for me.

On a brighter note, ran to kent ridge park yesterday evening. It was nice, it even has a tree top walk, however a certain Mr. J made us exit the park at Pasir Panjang road, near the PSA building, therefore extending the run for a good 15 minutes. But it felt good to run, to not think about my work, to not think about my life, to concentrate only on putting my foot correctly, listening only to my breathing. For an hour, I could just not think.

Appearances

Watched Ugly Betty last night. I felt so sad for Betty when she was rejected entry to the club, when her boss told her to "Dress up" for the restaurant where they were to meet with a client.

And she did, with help from her sister.And in the end she looked even worse than she started out. And it didn't help that the bitch, Wilhelmina (Vanessa Williams) put her down during a meeting in front of everyone. So much so that Betty felt she shouldn't go for the meeting because she's ugly.

She's not pretty, not in the show. But her taste in fashion could be improved. But then that's not the point of the show.

I can understand how she feels. To be ugly, fat and unwanted. But she's stronger than I am. She still loves herself. At one point in my life I hated myself. I'll keep asking myself, "Why am I so fat?" "Why isn't anything I do helping?". AND that is where all my insecurity stems from, my ugly and fat childhood. There'll be people who'll say that i wasn't ugly, just fat, but to some people, FAT is ugly.

I believe that beauty is subjective. What is attractive to me, might be repugnant to another. Some might think that I'm handsome, while others will think that I'm ugly. So, what's the point of this whole post, basically it's if you do not look good, dress good. if you look good, remember that looks might attract for the moment, but character is what will cause a person to stay by you forever.

Note: All photos are taken from www.abc.com and all copyrights belongs to them.

Rain

Haircut

Flip flop

Feet

MINE

Japanese

何か、日本語のレベルはどんどん落ちている。
久しぶりにつかわないから。

本当に残念かな。

SIA

I went for the SIA(Singapore Airlines) career talk this evening. Having only approximately 3 hours of sleep last night, I was struggling to keep awake while listening to the wonderful history, strategies and experiences of SIA.

I was disappointed to find that this career talk had nothing on Engineering careers in SIA, it was mostly managerial, administrative careers.

And then we had the cabin crew recruitment effort. There was a flight steward and stewardess doing this part. The moment the guy started to speak, I thought "This guy sounds like an emcee". And we found out later that he in fact was an emcee for some club in SIA. The stewardess? Let's just say that she lives in the present. She does not seem to understand the concept of past tense.　She related a past incident totally in the present tense.

All in all, the first part of the talk felt like a history lecture. The second part felt like a badly scripted presentation.

Damn, I don't think I'll apply to be a cabin crew anymore.

Soya Bean Milk

An incident occurred just before class started today. A friend spilled soya bean milk onto the floor. No one was hurt, except maybe her notebook, and a few unfortunate ants( who drowned ignobly). The thing that gets to me is that, except for the people who knew her as a friend, none of the other people in class offered a helping hand (except the tutor).

Happyness

How down can your life get?
Definitely not as bad as Chris Gardner.

The pursuit of Happyness.
An utterly depressing movie, moving from low point to low point.
A great performance by Will Smith made it just bearable.

One thing I came away with is that happiness is spelt with "I" not "y".
Make of that what you will.

JLPT 2

Strangely, I'm not as ecstatic as I thought I would be.

JLPT

I managed to pass JLPT level 2.

yay...

Gardening

What happens when another garderner comes along?

掃除：Cleaning

Cleaned my room today.
今日部屋を掃除した。

Helped me to stop thinking.
思うのをやめさせた。

Thinking too much lately.
最近思いすぎた。

自分は悪い人と思っている。
自分は何もできないと思っている。
自分は思うようにできないと思っている。

剣道も、勉強も、人生も。
昨夜、喧嘩した。
僕の所為？
人々の財政の状況は違う。
考え方も違う。

Parents have spent their whole lives taking care of, worry about us.
Now that we've grown up, it should the time for them to do the things that they enjoy.
That is how i think, and that is what I believe.

Prosperity Burger

It's not nice. Too spicy, no hint of prosperity at all.

Sultan Mosque

Murtabak

Old posts

I was reading through some of my old post on this very same blog, and I laughed out loud at them.

Nostalgia.

What ever happened to my sense of humor? Looking at my recent posts, I'm so decent, not bitchy, so loving, so sweet, so not wicked, SOOOO not interesting.

In other words BORING!

Time to start bitching, and most of all, no more blogging in a language I'm still struggling with.

決めた

決めた。日本語を一時的に止めよう。
残念だと思うけど、仕方がない。
日本語６のシラバスはちょっと大変だから。
第一週でも、覚えなきゃならない新字が5ページぐらいある。
もし日本語を取れば、他の科目を怠けるかもしれない。
いくらやりたくなくても、止めた方がよい。

Donuts

最後

学生生活の最後の四ヶ月だ。七月に、思うように進めば、卒業することになる。大人になる。嬉しくすべきだが、今の気持ちはそうじゃない。いやとか、緊張とかの方が本当の気持ちだ。今、誰かの肩に寄せたい。誰かの耳を借りたい。誰かに抱いてもらいたい。会いたい。本当に会いたい。何故そのとき、傍にいない？

今の僕、未来のことをよく考えている。将来、君の仕事は忙しいはずだ。毎日晩く働くはずだ。僕もそうはずだ。二人忙しいので、会う時間が少なくなって、お互いをだんだん知らなくなる。これに怖じている。

僕たちの夢は自分の家を買って、一緒に暮らすが、金のために、働くばかり、家は誰もいないのは馬鹿なことと思っている。その様な家を欲しくない。金がなくてもよい。せめて君と一緒に、何でもよい。

Fireworks

Fireworks

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New Year

The gang of people whom I watched fireworks with this year.