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28 December 2006
24 December 2006
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27 November 2006
Skill
Something happened that made me really happy today.
A friend called and asked for my help,
in dealing with a Japanese lady.
So i did, i managed to find out what she wanted to do,
told her what she needed to do,
all over the phone.
Somehow, it makes me feel that learning Japanese does have it uses,
SOMEWHAT!
じゃ、今から、工学の期末試験を勉強しよう。
A friend called and asked for my help,
in dealing with a Japanese lady.
So i did, i managed to find out what she wanted to do,
told her what she needed to do,
all over the phone.
Somehow, it makes me feel that learning Japanese does have it uses,
SOMEWHAT!
じゃ、今から、工学の期末試験を勉強しよう。
Coward
Thoughts running through my head,
Such a great desire to write them down,
yet I'm too afraid.
Too afraid of revealing too much,
Someday, I will write it all out.
Yes, maybe someday.
Such a great desire to write them down,
yet I'm too afraid.
Too afraid of revealing too much,
Someday, I will write it all out.
Yes, maybe someday.
26 November 2006
24 November 2006
22 November 2006
20 November 2006
7 November 2006
3 November 2006
剣道
試合の写真
The Seniors.
The juniors. (i.e. the newbies. )
The junior Gals
Junior Guys
That's Robin in the middle holding on to the shinai. He's the first runner up for the non-bogu division.
James, Perry, Wenlin, me, and Jiejing smiling and taking photos while every one else is concentrating on the matches.
It must have looked pretty weird to the other kendo clubs to see the NUS kendo kai juniors treating the tournament as a chance to take pictures and generally treating it as one big excursion.
24 October 2006
Kendo
Finally, my gi and hakama are here.
It was an interesting training session, with senpai telling us that we'll become smurfs at the send of training, (in other words, the dye will come off).
Learning how to wear the gi and hakama is challenge in itself.
Folding the them to put into my bag is even more of a problem.
But it does feel different wearing proper attire to kendo. You walk straighter, feel more confident, and most importantly of all, ou don't run the risk of accidently exposing yourself.
It's hotter definitely, but it's oh so much more fun.
I'm enjoying kendo so much, I'm beginning to question why I didn't join earlier.
It was an interesting training session, with senpai telling us that we'll become smurfs at the send of training, (in other words, the dye will come off).
Learning how to wear the gi and hakama is challenge in itself.
Folding the them to put into my bag is even more of a problem.
But it does feel different wearing proper attire to kendo. You walk straighter, feel more confident, and most importantly of all, ou don't run the risk of accidently exposing yourself.
It's hotter definitely, but it's oh so much more fun.
I'm enjoying kendo so much, I'm beginning to question why I didn't join earlier.
25 September 2006
Weird
The fact that the straits times had an article on what to do if you fall onto the MRT track. Shouldn't this have been done way way way back, when there were fatal cases? And not only when people finally realised that it's possible to survive falling onto the tracks? Weird how the media works in Singapore.
The fact that not only are there people who would torture cats, there are those who would take a video clip of themself kicking a cat. I wonder if these people get weird nightmares of giant cats kicking them and making a video clip out of it.
The fact that there are people who will starve themselves for a whole week just to lose weight, and part of the program involves having to look at people eat dinner after they've starved themselves for a whole week. Weird way to lose weight.
The fact that I'm now hooked onto a korean drama titled "Full House". Never thought I'll be hooked onto korean drama, weird. Although if anyone has the vcds/dvds of this drama, do be kind and lend me.
Weird that life feels empty recently.
Weird that I'm beginning to worry.
Weird that I do not know what else to do.
The fact that not only are there people who would torture cats, there are those who would take a video clip of themself kicking a cat. I wonder if these people get weird nightmares of giant cats kicking them and making a video clip out of it.
The fact that there are people who will starve themselves for a whole week just to lose weight, and part of the program involves having to look at people eat dinner after they've starved themselves for a whole week. Weird way to lose weight.
The fact that I'm now hooked onto a korean drama titled "Full House". Never thought I'll be hooked onto korean drama, weird. Although if anyone has the vcds/dvds of this drama, do be kind and lend me.
Weird that life feels empty recently.
Weird that I'm beginning to worry.
Weird that I do not know what else to do.
15 September 2006
Xtreme Makeover
Watched extreme makeover.
About a pair of friends.
They were almost perfect at the end,
except for their boobs,
which took up too much space.
I couldn't understand why they had to go for breast enlargement, when they looked more than ample.
One of them turned out to look too top heavy.
Like a barbie doll, except for the waist.
I've never been a big fan of big chested women,
preferring petite, proportionate and pretty.
I know that there are guys who love well endowed women,
I'm not one of those.
About a pair of friends.
They were almost perfect at the end,
except for their boobs,
which took up too much space.
I couldn't understand why they had to go for breast enlargement, when they looked more than ample.
One of them turned out to look too top heavy.
Like a barbie doll, except for the waist.
I've never been a big fan of big chested women,
preferring petite, proportionate and pretty.
I know that there are guys who love well endowed women,
I'm not one of those.
13 September 2006
二年間七ヶ月
喧嘩してしまった。
簡単な事だけど、あなたは複雑にしたかった。
誰も気がつかないだと思ったんだ。
本当は、僕はこのブログに楽しいことだけ書きたい。
でも、このごろ悲しいことしかない様だ。
今、僕は本当に何をすればいいかわからない。
何故今のあなたはそんなに怒れ易いか？
僕の所為か？
僕は何か悪いことをやらなかった。
謝るか、何もしないか？
ぜんぜん知らない。
簡単な事だけど、あなたは複雑にしたかった。
誰も気がつかないだと思ったんだ。
本当は、僕はこのブログに楽しいことだけ書きたい。
でも、このごろ悲しいことしかない様だ。
今、僕は本当に何をすればいいかわからない。
何故今のあなたはそんなに怒れ易いか？
僕の所為か？
僕は何か悪いことをやらなかった。
謝るか、何もしないか？
ぜんぜん知らない。
19 August 2006
14 August 2006
23 July 2006
21 July 2006
Happiness
When I saw the "pass" next to my name this afternoon, I was at my happiest the whole week. :)
just "pass", not "conditional pass", not "fail".
Happiness is made up of little things.
Been listening to "Scissor Sisters", they've been around for quite a while, but I've only heard of them recently, and I like them. They have an interesting sound. Right now, i might have thousands of songs in my iPod, but I'm only listening to them on my way to and from work.
bopping my head to their quirky sound and "interesting" lyrics.
scaring the hell out of my fellow commuters,
earning weird looks from the rush hour crowd.
just "pass", not "conditional pass", not "fail".
Happiness is made up of little things.
Been listening to "Scissor Sisters", they've been around for quite a while, but I've only heard of them recently, and I like them. They have an interesting sound. Right now, i might have thousands of songs in my iPod, but I'm only listening to them on my way to and from work.
bopping my head to their quirky sound and "interesting" lyrics.
scaring the hell out of my fellow commuters,
earning weird looks from the rush hour crowd.
10 July 2006
Moody
I thought that I've finally learn how to handle it. I thought this time round, I'll not feel sad even though you're going back. I thought since it's only for another three weeks, I should be alright.
It's not. I've been feeling out of sorts since you left.
This one week together with you has been the best week out of my whole holidays.
It's not. I've been feeling out of sorts since you left.
This one week together with you has been the best week out of my whole holidays.
3 July 2006
Ethics
Is it ethical to profess your love for someone whom you know to be attached?
On saturday, we gathered at Vicky's place and had a bit of fun doing a bit of fortune telling. It wasn't full fledged fortune telling, since we were only able to ask about our relations concerning only one person at a time.
I realised something that day, the tellings were quite accurate, but then the readings were so general that you could find a correlation if you tried.
So there.
I do not believe in horoscopes nor fortunes.
Life and love is what you make of it, even if it will take you a while to work up the courage to fight for it.
Recently a friend complained to me about how she regrets dumping her boyfriend. And as I listened, I came to the realization that I was listening to a kid complain. Because her regret surfaced only when she realized that her ex is moving on, and is starting to date once again.
From what I've heard, he is a perfectly nice guy, a tad clingy, a tad over-protective, but a nice guy nontheless. But that she decided to part ways due to issues which she felt were irresolvable. So she expressed a desire to be back with him, and I asked her, "do you feel that those issues are going to be resolvable now?" she couldn't give me any answer, just a I don't know.
From my point of view, she was being selfish. She wanted freedom, yet she wanted the guy to be there when she got tired of freedom. And now that she realises the guy might not be there anymorem she begins to regret it.
Of course, him being back in Singapore probably helped to changed her mind.
What I'm afraid of is that the guy will gladly take her back if she wants to go back, and that this might not be good for them.
I think that the both of them might not be mature enough to handle a relationship. At least not with one another.
On saturday, we gathered at Vicky's place and had a bit of fun doing a bit of fortune telling. It wasn't full fledged fortune telling, since we were only able to ask about our relations concerning only one person at a time.
I realised something that day, the tellings were quite accurate, but then the readings were so general that you could find a correlation if you tried.
So there.
I do not believe in horoscopes nor fortunes.
Life and love is what you make of it, even if it will take you a while to work up the courage to fight for it.
Recently a friend complained to me about how she regrets dumping her boyfriend. And as I listened, I came to the realization that I was listening to a kid complain. Because her regret surfaced only when she realized that her ex is moving on, and is starting to date once again.
From what I've heard, he is a perfectly nice guy, a tad clingy, a tad over-protective, but a nice guy nontheless. But that she decided to part ways due to issues which she felt were irresolvable. So she expressed a desire to be back with him, and I asked her, "do you feel that those issues are going to be resolvable now?" she couldn't give me any answer, just a I don't know.
From my point of view, she was being selfish. She wanted freedom, yet she wanted the guy to be there when she got tired of freedom. And now that she realises the guy might not be there anymorem she begins to regret it.
Of course, him being back in Singapore probably helped to changed her mind.
What I'm afraid of is that the guy will gladly take her back if she wants to go back, and that this might not be good for them.
I think that the both of them might not be mature enough to handle a relationship. At least not with one another.
Lazy Sunday
Lazing at home, watching tv, reading the newspaper, buying lunch home. Sounds horribly mundane, doesn't it? But yesterday, that was exactly what I did, and I never felt happier.
It makes me wonder how often will we get to do that together? When school starts, we'll once again be busy with school work, and with your church commitments on Sundays, I don't think we'll have many chances to just laze around on a Sunday.
But still, it was nice.
It makes me wonder how often will we get to do that together? When school starts, we'll once again be busy with school work, and with your church commitments on Sundays, I don't think we'll have many chances to just laze around on a Sunday.
But still, it was nice.
24 June 2006
会った
今日、うちへ帰る途中で、何か面白いことをあった。
俺はバスで自分で作った単語カードを見ていたとき、隣に座っていた方はカードを見ていて、紙を出して、何かを書いていた。
書いている字はひらがなみたい。
何を書いてるのを読んでみるとき、あの方は僕の手にその紙を渡した。へえ？何だろう？
はは、かみで「始めまして、ぼくはDYLANです。」が書いてある。
よかったね。
へへ
面白かった。
Dylanさん。このブログを読んだら、よろしくお願いします。
俺はバスで自分で作った単語カードを見ていたとき、隣に座っていた方はカードを見ていて、紙を出して、何かを書いていた。
書いている字はひらがなみたい。
何を書いてるのを読んでみるとき、あの方は僕の手にその紙を渡した。へえ？何だろう？
はは、かみで「始めまして、ぼくはDYLANです。」が書いてある。
よかったね。
へへ
面白かった。
Dylanさん。このブログを読んだら、よろしくお願いします。
20 June 2006
Hollywood!!!
I have a friend who's heading to Los Angeles in October. HOLLYWOOD !!!
Since he's going alone, he asked whether I would like to go along.
I would love to, but school and being cash strapped rendered me helpless to fulfill my want.
oh well, guess I can only sing madonna's song and write down Los Angeles in bold on my list of places I want to see before I die, right below Venice and above Istanbul. :)
Everybody comes to Hollywood
They wanna make it in the neighborhood
They like the smell of it in Hollywood
How could it hurt you when it looks so good
Chorus:
Shine your light now
This time it's gotta be good
You get it right now
'Cause you're in Hollywood
There's something in the air in Hollywood
The sun is shinin' like you knew it would
You're ridin' in your car in Hollywood
You got the top down and it feels so good
Everybody comes to Hollywood
They wanna make it in the neighborhood
They like the smell of it in Hollywood
How could it hurt you when it looks so good
I lost my memory in Hollywood
I've had a million visions, bad and good
There's something in the air in Hollywood
I tried to leave it but I never could
(chorus)
There's something in the air in Hollywood
I've lost my reputation, bad and good
You're ridin' in your car in Hollywood
You got the top down and it feels so good
Music stations always play the same songs
I'm bored with the concept of right and wrong
Everybody comes to Hollywood
They wanna make it in the neighborhood
They like the smell of it in Hollywood
How could it hurt you when it looks so good
(chorus)
'Cause you're in Hollywood
'Cause you're in Hollywood
In Hollywood (repeat four times)
Check it out, this bird has flown
(chorus)
'Cause you're in Hollywood
'Cause you're in Hollywood
In Hollywood (repeat three times)
Push the button
Don't push the button
Trip the station
Change the channel
(repeat three times)
Since he's going alone, he asked whether I would like to go along.
I would love to, but school and being cash strapped rendered me helpless to fulfill my want.
oh well, guess I can only sing madonna's song and write down Los Angeles in bold on my list of places I want to see before I die, right below Venice and above Istanbul. :)
Everybody comes to Hollywood
They wanna make it in the neighborhood
They like the smell of it in Hollywood
How could it hurt you when it looks so good
Chorus:
Shine your light now
This time it's gotta be good
You get it right now
'Cause you're in Hollywood
There's something in the air in Hollywood
The sun is shinin' like you knew it would
You're ridin' in your car in Hollywood
You got the top down and it feels so good
Everybody comes to Hollywood
They wanna make it in the neighborhood
They like the smell of it in Hollywood
How could it hurt you when it looks so good
I lost my memory in Hollywood
I've had a million visions, bad and good
There's something in the air in Hollywood
I tried to leave it but I never could
(chorus)
There's something in the air in Hollywood
I've lost my reputation, bad and good
You're ridin' in your car in Hollywood
You got the top down and it feels so good
Music stations always play the same songs
I'm bored with the concept of right and wrong
Everybody comes to Hollywood
They wanna make it in the neighborhood
They like the smell of it in Hollywood
How could it hurt you when it looks so good
(chorus)
'Cause you're in Hollywood
'Cause you're in Hollywood
In Hollywood (repeat four times)
Check it out, this bird has flown
(chorus)
'Cause you're in Hollywood
'Cause you're in Hollywood
In Hollywood (repeat three times)
Push the button
Don't push the button
Trip the station
Change the channel
(repeat three times)
17 June 2006
七月
七月、誰かシンガポールに帰る。ほんとうに楽しみにしている。いくら一週間以下いても、もう嬉しくなる。でもシンガポールにいるとき、君は忙しいかもしれないから、会う時間があまりないだと思う。それに働かなければならないから、会う時間は夜だけ。
でも、七月プレースメントテストを受けるから、心配だ。準備はまだ完了しない。
昨夜、僕の親友が泣いていた。何をしたほうがいいか知らなかった。無用の友だ、僕は。
でも、七月プレースメントテストを受けるから、心配だ。準備はまだ完了しない。
昨夜、僕の親友が泣いていた。何をしたほうがいいか知らなかった。無用の友だ、僕は。
16 June 2006
Blink blink
That's how I reacted when I read "we're on talking terms" on MSN. I blinked, then I blinked somemore.
Someone decided to give someone another chance. Despite the sheer absurdity of the reason for the break up. I won't go into the reason, since I don't think it's appropriate for me to reveal it.
Someone decided to give someone another chance. Despite the sheer absurdity of the reason for the break up. I won't go into the reason, since I don't think it's appropriate for me to reveal it.
15 June 2006
Extension!?
Today, my supervisor suddenly asked me whether I would like to extend my internship,to September. I'm thinking that he must be really desperate to want me to stay on his project. I'm wondering if I should. Or maybe it just means that he feels that I'm up to the job. Yah right, I wish.
On another note, someone is sick. Sad. Nothing I can do. Actually there's not much I can do even if someone is in Singapore, except accompany to the doctor's and moral support and to worry.
6 more minutes to knock off as I'm typing. Got my program up and running, running the simulations now.
On another note, someone is sick. Sad. Nothing I can do. Actually there's not much I can do even if someone is in Singapore, except accompany to the doctor's and moral support and to worry.
6 more minutes to knock off as I'm typing. Got my program up and running, running the simulations now.
12 June 2006
Cereal Prawns
My mum cooked cereal prawns today. And it was really good. It was so good that I ate the whole prawn shell and all.
6 June 2006
Me!!!
Took this photo during Jem's birthday party. I like it, even though the skin is oily, the eyes are closed and the hair is ugly.
Where's the birthday boy you ask? Behind the camera unfortunately. :)
4 June 2006
Why?
Happy post? I guess so, it feels that one has been long overdue. :)
As much as i like looking at young nubike things( yes dear, I do look and I'm sorry.) I know that a certain someone is the one and only one for me.
A friend was telling me about how long distance relationship is a potential pit fall for relationships due to reasons known to all( I hope ).
At one point I was pretty worried and I got angry. I know you've forgiven me, and I'm grateful for that.
A friend(a fellow scorpio) gave me an insight into a scorpio's personailty, and I think it's quite accurate, Scorpios are a possesive bunch. So he advised me to loosen up, let her have fun, trust her, I'm trying, it ain't easy, but I'm trying.
Conversely, I realise that I'm not under a very tight rein at all, any restrictions I have are mostly due to myself, temptations abounds, and I know that I should never put myself in a situation where I might get tempted.
SOOOOO, I might like looking at young nubile things, but at the end of the day I look forward to conversing with you( when you're not acting silly ), a perfectionist, a scatter brain, a dreamer, and the love of my life.
* hmmm, that last line seems to be a bit mushy. But I like it. haha.
As much as i like looking at young nubike things( yes dear, I do look and I'm sorry.) I know that a certain someone is the one and only one for me.
A friend was telling me about how long distance relationship is a potential pit fall for relationships due to reasons known to all( I hope ).
At one point I was pretty worried and I got angry. I know you've forgiven me, and I'm grateful for that.
A friend(a fellow scorpio) gave me an insight into a scorpio's personailty, and I think it's quite accurate, Scorpios are a possesive bunch. So he advised me to loosen up, let her have fun, trust her, I'm trying, it ain't easy, but I'm trying.
Conversely, I realise that I'm not under a very tight rein at all, any restrictions I have are mostly due to myself, temptations abounds, and I know that I should never put myself in a situation where I might get tempted.
SOOOOO, I might like looking at young nubile things, but at the end of the day I look forward to conversing with you( when you're not acting silly ), a perfectionist, a scatter brain, a dreamer, and the love of my life.
* hmmm, that last line seems to be a bit mushy. But I like it. haha.
28 May 2006
Break
最近ちょっと時間があまりないから、ブログを書けなかった。何をする？働いている。毎日、コンピューターを見て、プログラムをやって、目が疲れるようになる。だから、うちへ帰った後で、コンピューターを見たくなくて、ブログもやりたくない。日本語でやりたいだが、英語でやったほうが速いだろう。だからここから、英語を使う。
Been feeling kind of down recently. Got my results, My CAP went down again. Oh well, at least I didn't fail.
I think i might have over reacted a few nights back. But I just got my results, and I wasn't feeling great when you called. I was tired from work, tired from seeing my crappy result, tired of always having to wait for you to end your parties. I'm so tired. Heard the news that a friend broke up, he tried to look happy when I saw him on saturday, yet I could sense his unhappiness, his sadness. Also found out that another friend is back together with the person he broke up with. I could sense his unhappiness too. So we went to dance the night away. To try and forget our problems and our sadness.
I'm getting way too old to still be clubbing, I think it's time I stop, isn't it time for you to stop as well?
Haha, I feel so silly, I think I should start a diary soon, one where I can really write how I really feel, one where I'll read 10 years later, smiling and cringing as I do so.
I know this blog ain't it, I compose my posts with the utmost care to preserve the anomymity of the people involved, and to compose my thoughts in such a way so as not to offend people.
I wonder if I should stop? I don't see anymore meaning in blogging.
I think I'll take a break from now, until my spirits are higher, and my words cheerier, and my life interesting.
Been feeling kind of down recently. Got my results, My CAP went down again. Oh well, at least I didn't fail.
I think i might have over reacted a few nights back. But I just got my results, and I wasn't feeling great when you called. I was tired from work, tired from seeing my crappy result, tired of always having to wait for you to end your parties. I'm so tired. Heard the news that a friend broke up, he tried to look happy when I saw him on saturday, yet I could sense his unhappiness, his sadness. Also found out that another friend is back together with the person he broke up with. I could sense his unhappiness too. So we went to dance the night away. To try and forget our problems and our sadness.
I'm getting way too old to still be clubbing, I think it's time I stop, isn't it time for you to stop as well?
Haha, I feel so silly, I think I should start a diary soon, one where I can really write how I really feel, one where I'll read 10 years later, smiling and cringing as I do so.
I know this blog ain't it, I compose my posts with the utmost care to preserve the anomymity of the people involved, and to compose my thoughts in such a way so as not to offend people.
I wonder if I should stop? I don't see anymore meaning in blogging.
I think I'll take a break from now, until my spirits are higher, and my words cheerier, and my life interesting.
4 May 2006
Empty
I keep wanting to blog, but my life just hasn't been interesting enough to blog about.
The most noticeable event is that I'm done with my exams. :)
And the realization that we do not argue like normal couples.
We do not like to talk about the stuff that bothers us,
we just keep quiet.
Bad for the relationship huh?
I agree, but there's nothing I can really do, I can try to talk about stuff, but i figure we'll probably just end up not talking about it.
We're both too non-confrontational.
I hate it.
Long distance relationships. What do I think of it?
It sucks.
There's no intimacy.
And there's a very big difference between talking to you on the phone and talking to you lying by my side.
There's no one to go to when I'm feeling down.
That's why I've decided, I'll not take up a job that'll take me away from you. Not even for a few days.
Sometimes, I wonder am I being silly to give up things, take up things for you. I would like to think I'm not. One person in a relationship has to give more, all that about equal relationship is bull shit. It is not attainable.
Am I the one giving more? It feels like it sometimes, but I can't be sure that is the case.
Sometimes I do wonder, what do you see in me?
I can't really see anything good in myself.
That is why I try my best to be good to you.
The most noticeable event is that I'm done with my exams. :)
And the realization that we do not argue like normal couples.
We do not like to talk about the stuff that bothers us,
we just keep quiet.
Bad for the relationship huh?
I agree, but there's nothing I can really do, I can try to talk about stuff, but i figure we'll probably just end up not talking about it.
We're both too non-confrontational.
I hate it.
Long distance relationships. What do I think of it?
It sucks.
There's no intimacy.
And there's a very big difference between talking to you on the phone and talking to you lying by my side.
There's no one to go to when I'm feeling down.
That's why I've decided, I'll not take up a job that'll take me away from you. Not even for a few days.
Sometimes, I wonder am I being silly to give up things, take up things for you. I would like to think I'm not. One person in a relationship has to give more, all that about equal relationship is bull shit. It is not attainable.
Am I the one giving more? It feels like it sometimes, but I can't be sure that is the case.
Sometimes I do wonder, what do you see in me?
I can't really see anything good in myself.
That is why I try my best to be good to you.
20 April 2006
Exams
tomorrow my exams starts.
I got scolded the other day.
Why? Because I said to someone that I didn't feel like studying.
And i felt happy to be scolded.
明日試験が始まる。
この間、僕が誰かにしかれた。
何故？僕が誰かに勉強したくないと言ったから。
僕はしかれたのは嬉しかったと思ってた。
I got scolded the other day.
Why? Because I said to someone that I didn't feel like studying.
And i felt happy to be scolded.
明日試験が始まる。
この間、僕が誰かにしかれた。
何故？僕が誰かに勉強したくないと言ったから。
僕はしかれたのは嬉しかったと思ってた。
18 April 2006
Sometimes...
... I'm just not sensitive enough.
Somebody said that I'm not known for my sympathy, and I think that isn't true.
I sympathize, but not when it is not going to do the person any good.
I scold because I love. But I must admit I go overboard at times.
But I find it irritating when someone does silly things and complains about it after.
Maybe I hate it because I'm prone to doing it as well. But I'm trying to outgrow it.
I'll only scold those that matter to me.
Because I don't want the people i care about to be hurt, or tired from their own (in my opinion) bad decisions.
Understand a bit more of me today.
Know my intentions, I do not ever mean to hurt.
Somebody said that I'm not known for my sympathy, and I think that isn't true.
I sympathize, but not when it is not going to do the person any good.
I scold because I love. But I must admit I go overboard at times.
But I find it irritating when someone does silly things and complains about it after.
Maybe I hate it because I'm prone to doing it as well. But I'm trying to outgrow it.
I'll only scold those that matter to me.
Because I don't want the people i care about to be hurt, or tired from their own (in my opinion) bad decisions.
Understand a bit more of me today.
Know my intentions, I do not ever mean to hurt.
10 April 2006
Buses and plastic bags
Sometimes I wonder what parents are teaching their kids. Because today, on the bus home, I saw something that made me feel like screaming at the kid.
First of all it was almost rush hour, and the bus was slowly filling up. So there I was listening to my iPod almost dozing off. Nearing Toa Payoh, three aunties boarded the bus. I gave one of them my seat, leaving two. And there's when I realised that there was an empty seat, oh wait, it wasn't empty, it was occupied by a plastic bag. A plastic bag that could have fitted nicely ontop of the bag of its owner, a horizontally challenged Indian boy. But no, the plastic bag had to have a seat of its own during rush hour, while there were people standing.
And the worse thing? One of the aunties came towards the seat thinking that it was empty, only to be disappointed to find it occupied by a plastic bag. Luckily, the lady sitting infront of the kid gave her seat up to the auntie. Thus resolving a potentially awkward situation for the kid.
I wonder if I should have said or done something. But then I couldn't be bothered.
First of all it was almost rush hour, and the bus was slowly filling up. So there I was listening to my iPod almost dozing off. Nearing Toa Payoh, three aunties boarded the bus. I gave one of them my seat, leaving two. And there's when I realised that there was an empty seat, oh wait, it wasn't empty, it was occupied by a plastic bag. A plastic bag that could have fitted nicely ontop of the bag of its owner, a horizontally challenged Indian boy. But no, the plastic bag had to have a seat of its own during rush hour, while there were people standing.
And the worse thing? One of the aunties came towards the seat thinking that it was empty, only to be disappointed to find it occupied by a plastic bag. Luckily, the lady sitting infront of the kid gave her seat up to the auntie. Thus resolving a potentially awkward situation for the kid.
I wonder if I should have said or done something. But then I couldn't be bothered.
9 April 2006
8 April 2006
Over the rainbow
How do I know that you are the one for me?
I could say it's because you've said "I love you" to me.
Or how it feels so right to have you lying in my arms.
Or how my legs seem to be the perfect pillow for you.
Or how waking up to you by my side feels so natural.
Or how my heart beats faster when you're near.
Or how right it feels even when we're arguing.
Or how your hand seems to made for mine.
But the real reason is that I just do.
My heart knows.
You're the one.
You're the one for me.
I could say it's because you've said "I love you" to me.
Or how it feels so right to have you lying in my arms.
Or how my legs seem to be the perfect pillow for you.
Or how waking up to you by my side feels so natural.
Or how my heart beats faster when you're near.
Or how right it feels even when we're arguing.
Or how your hand seems to made for mine.
But the real reason is that I just do.
My heart knows.
You're the one.
You're the one for me.
7 April 2006
Blogging in japanese?
http://minnanoblog.blogspot.com/
Some of my friends from the Japanese classes set up this blog, if you understand japanese, do go check it out and tell us what's wrong. You should go check it even if you do not understand japanese, simply because it's cool. :)
Some of my friends from the Japanese classes set up this blog, if you understand japanese, do go check it out and tell us what's wrong. You should go check it even if you do not understand japanese, simply because it's cool. :)
1 April 2006
おにぎり
Today, i went to this japanese cafe at Robertson Quay. It has very good ramen. And that was what i ordered. I ordered the set which came with onigiri(rice balls) and tsukemono(pickled veggies).
When i was eating the onigiri, I suddenly thought "this tastes really good". And suddenly I missed Japan.
I went Mediya, and I saw so many japanese snacks, and again I missed Japan.
But as I was walking home, I came to a realization.
I thought I missed Japan.
But it's really you that I miss.
When i was eating the onigiri, I suddenly thought "this tastes really good". And suddenly I missed Japan.
I went Mediya, and I saw so many japanese snacks, and again I missed Japan.
But as I was walking home, I came to a realization.
I thought I missed Japan.
But it's really you that I miss.
31 March 2006
スキト
シレイさんあくまそうだ
みんなに会おう。
わたしのチームです。一番下の写真（左から）：チエンハウさん、（Qian Hao) マッシュさん、（Matthew) 私、千葉先生、シレイさん（Shi Lei).
30 March 2006
Photo
I just had to post this photo.
For those who are wondering( YES, ZY, I'm talking about you), she's not my girlfriend.
She's just the best friend I can ever wish for. :)
24 March 2006
Solitary
From now until August, I'll try to be strong.
I'll try not to give you cause to worry.
I'll study hard.
I'll be a good boy.
I'll miss you.
I'll look foward to when you're back again.
From a silly boy.
I'll try not to give you cause to worry.
I'll study hard.
I'll be a good boy.
I'll miss you.
I'll look foward to when you're back again.
From a silly boy.
18 March 2006
Spotted again
Today, while I was at Expo,
eating some yam paste,
a girl came up to me,
a girl from a talent agency.
Thus I'm spotted again. :)
eating some yam paste,
a girl came up to me,
a girl from a talent agency.
Thus I'm spotted again. :)
16 March 2006
New background
Damn, I planned to update my blog, but I spent the time looking for a new back ground for my blog instead.
Anyway, is the new background nice?
The fox came from Japan.
日本から来たきつねだ。
大好きだ。ありがとう。
Anyway, is the new background nice?
The fox came from Japan.
日本から来たきつねだ。
大好きだ。ありがとう。
26 February 2006
Happy Birthday!
So much to write about, yet so little time to do it with.
I've got tests coming up one after another, screwed.
Someone got picked up last night, woo.
NOT the birthday boy though.
The crowd at Wala Wala was great in the end,
NOT at the start though.
Had a fun time taking photos during the intermissions.
NOT just boring poses though.
Yet I have to say I enjoyed Gage's birthday celebrations.
Happy Birthday! Gagey.
I might have tests aplenty, but i wouldn't have missed it.
NOT for anything in the world.
I've got tests coming up one after another, screwed.
Someone got picked up last night, woo.
NOT the birthday boy though.
The crowd at Wala Wala was great in the end,
NOT at the start though.
Had a fun time taking photos during the intermissions.
NOT just boring poses though.
Yet I have to say I enjoyed Gage's birthday celebrations.
Happy Birthday! Gagey.
I might have tests aplenty, but i wouldn't have missed it.
NOT for anything in the world.
25 February 2006
2 years
If you think about, ten years isn't very long. It's not enough time.
There are two moments in my life where I remember learning important lessons about being married from my parents. One was when I asked my dad if he ever thought about divorcing my mother. Almost all of my friends had divorced parents, but it never seemed to be something I would have to worry about.
I remember them both laughing at the question.
Then I asked my dad, privately, if he still loved my mother as much as he did when he married her. And his answer surprised me. He told me that he didn't love my mother any longer. Certainly not in the sense that a young couple loves each other when they first meet. He told me that the feelings he had for my mother were greater than love. They were beyond love. At the time, I had no hopes of understanding what he meant.
When you love a woman wholly, and she loves you, it goes beyond mere sexual attraction or romantic infatuation. Over time, trials and tribulations you become intertwined. Like a Gordian knot. And I understand that now. I know what my dad meant.
The second lesson my parents taught me about being married was much harder to learn. I watched my father say goodbye to my mother. I saw him give her a final kiss and let her go. And I saw that 30 years was not enough time. I doubt that 100 years would have been enough.
There will never be enough time with Angela. As ten years blinking by can attest to. It feels as if we met a lifetime ago and at the same time it feels like we met yesterday. No matter how much time we have, it is inevitable that one day we will both feel cheated.
That's not to say that I'm sad today. Of course not. But I'm not giddy either. I find myself, ten years later, a content man of 35 who feels it would be irresponsible not to stop and smell the roses as deeply as possible.
I have a good life. It would be a sin not to properly cherish it.
Especially today.
From: PvPonline
I can understand how he feels, I can understand what he says. I've been worrying about what I'll do the day you leave me. But I now know that what I should do is not to worry about that day, but to cherish our time together. 2 years feels so long, yet it seems like just yesterday when I met you.
I'm sorry for giving you so much crap recently, but I just can't stand you not being around. Understand and forgive me?
19 February 2006
Melancholic
Spent the whole day in a sort of a daze. Didn't manage to do anything the whole day. Just dazed and daydreamed. Feeling that I want you to be by my side to tell me that everything is alright, hoping that you're here by my side squeezing my hand.
I lost my card holder yesterday, it held my IC, my matric card, my ezlink card. Yet I wasn't upset. But i know in my heart, that if I lost either my wallet or my ring, I'll never stop blaming myself. Simply because as of today, they've been with me for 1 year 17 days, simply because they remind me of you, simply because they were given to me by a person I love. I know you wouldn't blame me, but I will.
I cleared out my closet today, I saw the letters you wrote, the postcard you sent, the magazines you gave me, the box that held the ring that's on my left hand right now, the 99 cranes, the paper bag with my old wallet still inside. The photos of us.
After thinking for the whole afternoon, I came to the realization that the only thing I can't afford to lose is you.
I lost my card holder yesterday, it held my IC, my matric card, my ezlink card. Yet I wasn't upset. But i know in my heart, that if I lost either my wallet or my ring, I'll never stop blaming myself. Simply because as of today, they've been with me for 1 year 17 days, simply because they remind me of you, simply because they were given to me by a person I love. I know you wouldn't blame me, but I will.
I cleared out my closet today, I saw the letters you wrote, the postcard you sent, the magazines you gave me, the box that held the ring that's on my left hand right now, the 99 cranes, the paper bag with my old wallet still inside. The photos of us.
After thinking for the whole afternoon, I came to the realization that the only thing I can't afford to lose is you.
17 February 2006
16 February 2006
Johari's window
Arena(known to self and others) complex, intelligent, knowledgable, logical | Blind Spot(known only to others) able, caring, cheerful, clever, confident, dependable, energetic, friendly, idealistic, independent, kind, mature, modest, proud, reflective, responsive, searching, self-assertive, self-conscious, sensible, sentimental, trustworthy, warm, witty |
Façade(known only to self) accepting | Unknown(known to nobody) adaptable, bold, brave, calm, dignified, extroverted, giving, happy, helpful, ingenious, introverted, loving, nervous, observant, organised, patient, powerful, quiet, relaxed, religious, shy, silly, spontaneous, sympathetic, tense, wise |
All Percentages
able (20%) accepting (0%) adaptable (0%) bold (0%) brave (0%) calm (0%) caring (20%) cheerful (10%) clever (10%) complex (30%) confident (30%) dependable (40%) dignified (0%) energetic (10%) extroverted (0%) friendly (30%) giving (0%) happy (0%) helpful (0%) idealistic (10%) independent (30%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (30%) introverted (0%) kind (10%) knowledgable (30%) logical (10%) loving (0%) mature (30%) modest (10%) nervous (0%) observant (0%) organised (0%) patient (0%) powerful (0%) proud (10%) quiet (0%) reflective (20%) relaxed (0%) religious (0%) responsive (10%) searching (20%) self-assertive (30%) self-conscious (20%) sensible (20%) sentimental (30%) shy (0%) silly (0%) spontaneous (0%) sympathetic (0%) tense (0%) trustworthy (20%) warm (10%) wise (0%) witty (30%)
Created by the Interactive Johari Window on 16.2.2006, using data from 10 respondents.
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14 February 2006
短編映画
今日、短編映画を観た。シンガポール人が作った映画。ロマンスだ。この映画は高校生が書いた手紙の話だ。その男の子は友達が好きだ。でも、その友達に「好きだ」と言う時、友達は「無理だ。君が好き、でも友達の間だけだ。」と言った。何故無理だ？二人は男性だから。でも主人公は投げなかった。主人公はその好きな人にプレゼントをあげていた。最終、その人の誕生日に指輪を買ってあげた。その人は指輪を地に捨てた。「死ぬ！」と言った。その男の子、最終自殺だ。実生活の話です。
観た跡、悲しかった。
観た跡、悲しかった。
11 February 2006
買い物
今日忙しかった。
12時から2時まで授業あった。
その後、アルバイトへ行った。
それから、友達とオチャドで会った。
晩御飯を食べて行った。
サブウェイで食事した。
その前、Ｅｓｐｉｒｉｔでティーシャツ買った。
デザインもいいし、値段も安い。それに本当に好きから、買った。
食事後、友達と喋れながら、コーヒー飲んでいた。
いろいろな友達の事を言っていた。
本当に楽しかった。
12時から2時まで授業あった。
その後、アルバイトへ行った。
それから、友達とオチャドで会った。
晩御飯を食べて行った。
サブウェイで食事した。
その前、Ｅｓｐｉｒｉｔでティーシャツ買った。
デザインもいいし、値段も安い。それに本当に好きから、買った。
食事後、友達と喋れながら、コーヒー飲んでいた。
いろいろな友達の事を言っていた。
本当に楽しかった。
9 February 2006
8 February 2006
すいていた家
最近の二、三日、すいていた家に帰った。
姪を看なかったから、両親はいつも、どこかに出かけた。
だから、昼ご飯も晩ご飯も一人で食べていた。
寂しかった。大嫌い。
今朝、プロジェクトのミーティンぐに行った。
僕のアイデアを決めたけど、主管と会った会議に全然変えた。
アイデアはわからなかった。本当に気持ちが悪かった。
水泳の時だけは何でも忘れられる。
嬉しいことはひとつしかなかった。
それは、いま僕は自由形で泳げる。
姪を看なかったから、両親はいつも、どこかに出かけた。
だから、昼ご飯も晩ご飯も一人で食べていた。
寂しかった。大嫌い。
今朝、プロジェクトのミーティンぐに行った。
僕のアイデアを決めたけど、主管と会った会議に全然変えた。
アイデアはわからなかった。本当に気持ちが悪かった。
水泳の時だけは何でも忘れられる。
嬉しいことはひとつしかなかった。
それは、いま僕は自由形で泳げる。
29 January 2006
23 January 2006
22 January 2006
Link
Link
Why was such an article stopped? It didn't promote racial disharmony, nor did it have insensitive remarks. And the writer seemed to have done her research, i.e. it is not made up.
Was it a cover up? One can only wonder.
Or was it because the article dealt with a sensitive issue? gays? But, I seem to remember homosexuals being mentioned in the papers last year. Or is it because the article is about how support is given by the government to a group that promotes self hatred (if you're gay).
Or how that the government is "unleashing" a Christian ideals based group onto the supposedly secular schools.
Hooray for Press Freedom in Singapore.
Why was such an article stopped? It didn't promote racial disharmony, nor did it have insensitive remarks. And the writer seemed to have done her research, i.e. it is not made up.
Was it a cover up? One can only wonder.
Or was it because the article dealt with a sensitive issue? gays? But, I seem to remember homosexuals being mentioned in the papers last year. Or is it because the article is about how support is given by the government to a group that promotes self hatred (if you're gay).
Or how that the government is "unleashing" a Christian ideals based group onto the supposedly secular schools.
Hooray for Press Freedom in Singapore.
13 January 2006
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