Expectation

when a romance starts, average reply time of an sms is 2 min or never
when a romance stablised, average reply time is 20 min or never
when a romance stagnant, average reply time is 200 min or never
when romance is gone, average reply time is never...

when a romance starts, we get delighted when we receive the reply
when a romance stablised, we get piss when we dun receive immediate reply
when a romance stagnant, we dun even sms or reply
when the romance is gone, we get piss when we receive sms from the person

Got this from Jave.
It's so funny and so sad.
I hope i'll never experience a stagnant romance.

Love, me.

Love, Me
Collin Raye

I read a note my grandma wrote
Back in nineteen twenty-three
Grandpa kept it in his coat,
And he showed it once to me

He said, "Boy, you might not understand,
But a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none,
But I loved your Grandma so"

We had this crazy plan
To meet and run away together
Get married
In the first town we came to,
And live forever
But nailed to the tree
Where we were supposed to meet,
Instead
I found this letter,
And this is what it said

If you get there before I do,
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you
When my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down,
Darling wait and see
And between now and then,
Till I see you again
I'll be loving you. Love, me

I read those words
Just hours before
My Grandma passed away
In the doorway of a church
Where me and Grandpa
Stopped to pray
I know I'd never seen him cry
In all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her,
His eyes filled up with tears

If you get there before I do,
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you
When my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down,
Darling wait and see
And between now and then,
Till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, me
Between now and then,
Till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, me

Love is a wonderful thing, but is it ever worth dying over love? I might never understand how bad my friend feels at this point. I'm lucky in that relationships have been easy for me, there has never been a point when i felt that i'm unhappy in the relationship, but i do not wish to end it, for i've loved too deeply. Its true that i've not been in many realtionships, but if i were to have my heart broken this time, i'll cry, and stand up and live my life, i would never consider suicide as a way to keep someone's heart, for i believe if i love someone, i would never hurt that person by killing myself, and if my death won't affect that person, that person is hardly worth me killing myself?

Now, i'm going to listen to the song again, and think about how blessed i am to find true love in this day and age, and in the place where i least expect it.

Acceptance

What is acceptance?


I finally got to watch "shrek 2". It has been a lot time since i had such a good laugh. Especially Puss in boots, he really cracks me up. With his over the top ass-licking (and kicking) and puppy dog eyes, and the accent, which señor/señora can resist? Not an ogre that's for sure.

Oh, back to acceptance. What has the show got to do with acceptance? The show shows a form of acceptance that is all embracing. How else would a princess be able to accept an ogre as a husband? And for the King and Queen to show acceptance for them, and for the Queen to accept the King even though he's a frog. And what's the underlying reason for all this acceptance? Love. Sigh, but can love truly conquer all?



American Idol is coming to an end. And it's a show down between Fantasia and Diana. Personally i think if Latoya is in the finals, it would be a much much easy choice. For me at least.

Acceptance in American Idol is a strange and whimsical thing. Note: i equate votes for the contestants as acceptance by the American voters. I mean, talented and beautiful, yet Latoya still got voted off. Fat lips and fat tummy got into the finals, they have the talent, but isn't an idol suppose to be someone you aspire to? So shouldn't they at least look good? And you can tell that i'm not the only one who thinks this way in Singapore, from the smses running at the bottom of the screen (yes, i read them, and i find them interesting.). There are messages who put down one contestant in support of the other. Interesting, so you are supporting Diana because Fantasia looks like a "duck", and you're supporting Fantasia because Diana is "loud and screechy"?

To be fair there are those who try to be politically correct and say that they support because she has a great voice, or that she's a good performer. Yah right, if they made it there, they have the talent. DUH.

::Fantasia won. She's the new American Idol.::

Yup, i started typing during the show, and the results came out as i was typing.

Sidenote: but it is also interesting to see the amount of people who use the text message system as a way to express their love, and those who are so obviously ass licking to try and win the vouchers. The things people will do.

Choices

Today, i recieved the result of the streaming exercise. I managed to get into electrical engineering. Eventhough it is my preferred choice, i am not really all that estactical about it. For a simple reason. I do not wish to become an engineer of any kind. neither electrical nor biological. I'm struggling even with my first year's workload. Maths that i have trouble understanding, physics that i loathe to comprehend. Seriously, i do not think that i'll ever become anything more than a adequate engineer.

I cringe whenever i think of myself as an engineer, i would not trust any product that emerges from my hands, for fear that it will explode in my face even as i'm using it. i chose engineering simply because it is a "professional" degree, not out of any real interest on my part. And that engineering might be able to support my future extravagant lifestyle. And of course, a degree is what everyone works towards. Isn't that what the singapore government advocates?

I'm pretty much a product of the Singapore education system. i work towards the goals that the government wants us to achieve. A Degree in engineering. Sigh. I feel so used. Yet i cannot be ungrateful, for without the government's "help" i probably won't be sitting here typing this. And i would not have the dream of being an author. To bring a little bit of escapism to people's drudge of a life.

Revamp

A new design for my blog. Hee. For those with short memories, above is how my blog used to look like.

TV Shows

It's 2.30 in the morning, and i'm still up watching tv. what am i watching? Remember a show titled "迷離夜"? yup, its now being repeated in the ( very? )early morning. It's quite amazing the type of shows that TCS use as filler programmes.

It does bring back a certain sense of nostalgia, To see the actors/actresses looking so youthful, it brings me back to the days when life was so much simpler, and there was no need to worry about money, life, or what i was going to do with my life.

No matter how much i wish to go back to those carefree days, i can never go back to those days. So i think it'll be more realistic for me to start thinking of ways to live my life?

Sigh, looks like the only place i can find my past is in Television programmes that air after 2 in the morning.

將愛

Finally gotten the Dvd containing all the mtvs for faye's latest album.

Nice, stayed up late just to finish watching them.

Oh yah, gotten some 雞蛋卷.　Happy.

Photos.

Photos from my redang trip, u'll noticed that all the photos of my friends are fully clothed, you wanna see them in bikinis? wait till i get permission, in the mean time, u'll get to see me. *smiles*


Pathway that leads to the beach, the canteen and everything. 


The "mountains" behind the resort. the resort is really 背山面海. 


The pink looking thingys in the ocean are people snorkelling. they are trying to catch a glimpse of the sharks that infest the waters near the island, 


wow. check out the blue blue blue sky. 


With specs. 


without specs. looks much better huh? 


piggy backing miss piggy. hee. she's quite light. hee.... 


lazing in the hammock... at night? haha, actually we were waiting to view our photos, so we decided to laze in a hammock nearby. 


ooooo... sex in a hammock, how kinky is that? 


took this as i lazed in the hammock. hee.... 


Where we had our dinner, quite difficult, since non of us were fluent in malay? haha... in the end choon sze saved the day with his basic knowledge of malay and the enthusiam of the lady serving us. hehe.... 


On the extreme left is the lady who served us and was so helpful. she gave us a lesson in malay as we tried to order, and the most interestin thing was that she didn't speak a single english word throughout the whole thing. Haha, a lot more gesticulating and cajoling took place before i could take this picture, since she was quite reluctant. 


This is the view we had as we ate our dinner, i just had to take a picture. 


Two kitties, cute? haha, i saw them after dinner, probably had their hunger satiated from the left overs of the diners. Interesting that happened? First i saw one kitten lying there, i walked up and started to scratch it. before long, the second kitten, (the ginger colored one). strutted up and gave a look that just says, "i demand the exact same treament that she's getting." and i obliged. i probably looked like a right idiot, placing my camera on the pavement so that i could scratch both of them at the same time. I took this shoot just before i went away. i wish i have a cat for a companion. 

Humans

I realise that different people have different ideas as what constitutes a good time?

Some think that singing loudly through a karaoke system is a good time.

Some think that shouting at the ocean is a good time.

Some think that being bitchy is a good time.

Some think that relaxing is a good time.

some think that a good meal is a good time.

Some think that lazing in the sun is a good time.

Some think that being an idiot is a good time.

Some think that being a know-it-all is a good time.

Some think that being a slob during vacations is a good time.

some think that drinking lots of water is a good time.

some think that getting drunk is a good time?

Some think that not having a good time is a good time?

*Laughs*. look at me, rambling again.

Sigh, i miss the feel of sand underneath. and the sun on my skin and the sound of waves.

AND i do not know whether i'll get a chance to go back there.

A B C

No idea what to use as the title, so i just used the above generic "A B C" as the title. Just came back from Redang Island. The sun was great, the sea was clear, the sand was hot, the fishes were hungry.

I enjoyed the trip as much as i could. The long coach ride through the night was worth it.

But i realised that i no longer want to travel. Or i would only like to travel alone. I think that even the best of friends can run into problems when you have to spend days together.

Maybe its all my fault? i think so, but i'll like to think that maybe it is not. Laughs. Who will ever like to admit that it is their fault?

Maybe what Hui said is correct. We should only visit a place once, especially if the first time was great, subsequent vists might spoil the wonderful memories of that initial visit.

Sighs. I'm not a person who's easy to get along. I get tired of facing the same group of people for too long. Laughs, i'm weird right?

And i realise that a person i thought was a close friend thinks that i'm a sucker. laughs. or maybe i shouldn't be laughing. heh.

Just realized that my choice of title is justified.
I got my examination results.
They're satisfactory.