二年間七ヶ月

喧嘩してしまった。
簡単な事だけど、あなたは複雑にしたかった。
誰も気がつかないだと思ったんだ。

本当は、僕はこのブログに楽しいことだけ書きたい。
でも、このごろ悲しいことしかない様だ。

今、僕は本当に何をすればいいかわからない。
何故今のあなたはそんなに怒れ易いか？
僕の所為か？

僕は何か悪いことをやらなかった。
謝るか、何もしないか？
ぜんぜん知らない。

剣道

剣道はおもしろかった。

寂しい夜

今夜、一人だ。
一人で、家は大きくなるような気がする。
大きくて、一人で、寂しい。

静かな夜、何もしたくない。
何もできない。

一人で眠りたくない。

A year..

... is actually shorter than I thought :)

Happiness

When I saw the "pass" next to my name this afternoon, I was at my happiest the whole week. :)

just "pass", not "conditional pass", not "fail".

Happiness is made up of little things.

Been listening to "Scissor Sisters", they've been around for quite a while, but I've only heard of them recently, and I like them. They have an interesting sound. Right now, i might have thousands of songs in my iPod, but I'm only listening to them on my way to and from work.

bopping my head to their quirky sound and "interesting" lyrics.
scaring the hell out of my fellow commuters,
earning weird looks from the rush hour crowd.

Moody

I thought that I've finally learn how to handle it. I thought this time round, I'll not feel sad even though you're going back. I thought since it's only for another three weeks, I should be alright.

It's not. I've been feeling out of sorts since you left.
This one week together with you has been the best week out of my whole holidays.

Ethics

Is it ethical to profess your love for someone whom you know to be attached?

On saturday, we gathered at Vicky's place and had a bit of fun doing a bit of fortune telling. It wasn't full fledged fortune telling, since we were only able to ask about our relations concerning only one person at a time.

I realised something that day, the tellings were quite accurate, but then the readings were so general that you could find a correlation if you tried.

So there.

I do not believe in horoscopes nor fortunes.

Life and love is what you make of it, even if it will take you a while to work up the courage to fight for it.

Recently a friend complained to me about how she regrets dumping her boyfriend. And as I listened, I came to the realization that I was listening to a kid complain. Because her regret surfaced only when she realized that her ex is moving on, and is starting to date once again.

From what I've heard, he is a perfectly nice guy, a tad clingy, a tad over-protective, but a nice guy nontheless. But that she decided to part ways due to issues which she felt were irresolvable. So she expressed a desire to be back with him, and I asked her, "do you feel that those issues are going to be resolvable now?" she couldn't give me any answer, just a I don't know.

From my point of view, she was being selfish. She wanted freedom, yet she wanted the guy to be there when she got tired of freedom. And now that she realises the guy might not be there anymorem she begins to regret it.

Of course, him being back in Singapore probably helped to changed her mind.

What I'm afraid of is that the guy will gladly take her back if she wants to go back, and that this might not be good for them.

I think that the both of them might not be mature enough to handle a relationship. At least not with one another.

Lazy Sunday

Lazing at home, watching tv, reading the newspaper, buying lunch home. Sounds horribly mundane, doesn't it? But yesterday, that was exactly what I did, and I never felt happier.

It makes me wonder how often will we get to do that together? When school starts, we'll once again be busy with school work, and with your church commitments on Sundays, I don't think we'll have many chances to just laze around on a Sunday.

But still, it was nice.

会った

今日、うちへ帰る途中で、何か面白いことをあった。
俺はバスで自分で作った単語カードを見ていたとき、隣に座っていた方はカードを見ていて、紙を出して、何かを書いていた。
書いている字はひらがなみたい。
何を書いてるのを読んでみるとき、あの方は僕の手にその紙を渡した。へえ？何だろう？
はは、かみで「始めまして、ぼくはDYLANです。」が書いてある。
よかったね。

へへ

面白かった。

Dylanさん。このブログを読んだら、よろしくお願いします。

Hollywood!!!

I have a friend who's heading to Los Angeles in October. HOLLYWOOD !!!
Since he's going alone, he asked whether I would like to go along.

I would love to, but school and being cash strapped rendered me helpless to fulfill my want.

oh well, guess I can only sing madonna's song and write down Los Angeles in bold on my list of places I want to see before I die, right below Venice and above Istanbul. :)

Everybody comes to Hollywood
They wanna make it in the neighborhood
They like the smell of it in Hollywood
How could it hurt you when it looks so good

Chorus:
Shine your light now
This time it's gotta be good
You get it right now
'Cause you're in Hollywood

There's something in the air in Hollywood
The sun is shinin' like you knew it would
You're ridin' in your car in Hollywood
You got the top down and it feels so good

Everybody comes to Hollywood
They wanna make it in the neighborhood
They like the smell of it in Hollywood
How could it hurt you when it looks so good

I lost my memory in Hollywood
I've had a million visions, bad and good
There's something in the air in Hollywood
I tried to leave it but I never could

(chorus)

There's something in the air in Hollywood
I've lost my reputation, bad and good
You're ridin' in your car in Hollywood
You got the top down and it feels so good

Music stations always play the same songs
I'm bored with the concept of right and wrong

Everybody comes to Hollywood
They wanna make it in the neighborhood
They like the smell of it in Hollywood
How could it hurt you when it looks so good

(chorus)

'Cause you're in Hollywood
'Cause you're in Hollywood
In Hollywood (repeat four times)

Check it out, this bird has flown

(chorus)

'Cause you're in Hollywood
'Cause you're in Hollywood
In Hollywood (repeat three times)

Push the button
Don't push the button
Trip the station
Change the channel
(repeat three times)