Employed

I have a job! Finally. It's near home. I'm thinking it's a good thing, but something a friend said made me reconsider. "If you go to town, you'll be traveling away from home." Isn't that a depressing thought?

I just hope I'll be able to handle the job.
And since my workplace is so near, I'm planning to run home after work everyday.(or as often as I can). Now I'll start to look for a bag which will allow me to do that.

Someone said we're drifting apart. Honestly I feel that too. It has never been a problem that I'm doing Engineering and you're in Law, that you're bored when i talk about my work, that I'm bored when you talk about your work. It doesn't even matter that you're going to earn more than I am. (actually it does matter). Differences in opinion about religion didn't matter. (yet, it feels as though it'll matter soon). It doesn't matter that much that your parents hate me.( Although it probably should)

What am i trying to say? If I can't make it work with you, I think I'll just give up on finding the one for me.

On a brighter note, ran to kent ridge park yesterday evening. It was nice, it even has a tree top walk, however a certain Mr. J made us exit the park at Pasir Panjang road, near the PSA building, therefore extending the run for a good 15 minutes. But it felt good to run, to not think about my work, to not think about my life, to concentrate only on putting my foot correctly, listening only to my breathing. For an hour, I could just not think.

Appearances

Watched Ugly Betty last night. I felt so sad for Betty when she was rejected entry to the club, when her boss told her to "Dress up" for the restaurant where they were to meet with a client.

And she did, with help from her sister.And in the end she looked even worse than she started out. And it didn't help that the bitch, Wilhelmina (Vanessa Williams) put her down during a meeting in front of everyone. So much so that Betty felt she shouldn't go for the meeting because she's ugly.

She's not pretty, not in the show. But her taste in fashion could be improved. But then that's not the point of the show.

I can understand how she feels. To be ugly, fat and unwanted. But she's stronger than I am. She still loves herself. At one point in my life I hated myself. I'll keep asking myself, "Why am I so fat?" "Why isn't anything I do helping?". AND that is where all my insecurity stems from, my ugly and fat childhood. There'll be people who'll say that i wasn't ugly, just fat, but to some people, FAT is ugly.

I believe that beauty is subjective. What is attractive to me, might be repugnant to another. Some might think that I'm handsome, while others will think that I'm ugly. So, what's the point of this whole post, basically it's if you do not look good, dress good. if you look good, remember that looks might attract for the moment, but character is what will cause a person to stay by you forever.

Note: All photos are taken from www.abc.com and all copyrights belongs to them.

Rain

Haircut

Flip flop

Feet

MINE

Japanese

何か、日本語のレベルはどんどん落ちている。
久しぶりにつかわないから。

本当に残念かな。

SIA

I went for the SIA(Singapore Airlines) career talk this evening. Having only approximately 3 hours of sleep last night, I was struggling to keep awake while listening to the wonderful history, strategies and experiences of SIA.

I was disappointed to find that this career talk had nothing on Engineering careers in SIA, it was mostly managerial, administrative careers.

And then we had the cabin crew recruitment effort. There was a flight steward and stewardess doing this part. The moment the guy started to speak, I thought "This guy sounds like an emcee". And we found out later that he in fact was an emcee for some club in SIA. The stewardess? Let's just say that she lives in the present. She does not seem to understand the concept of past tense.　She related a past incident totally in the present tense.

All in all, the first part of the talk felt like a history lecture. The second part felt like a badly scripted presentation.

Damn, I don't think I'll apply to be a cabin crew anymore.

Soya Bean Milk

An incident occurred just before class started today. A friend spilled soya bean milk onto the floor. No one was hurt, except maybe her notebook, and a few unfortunate ants( who drowned ignobly). The thing that gets to me is that, except for the people who knew her as a friend, none of the other people in class offered a helping hand (except the tutor).

Happyness

How down can your life get?
Definitely not as bad as Chris Gardner.

The pursuit of Happyness.
An utterly depressing movie, moving from low point to low point.
A great performance by Will Smith made it just bearable.

One thing I came away with is that happiness is spelt with "I" not "y".
Make of that what you will.