4 May 2006

Empty

I keep wanting to blog, but my life just hasn't been interesting enough to blog about.
The most noticeable event is that I'm done with my exams. :)

And the realization that we do not argue like normal couples.
We do not like to talk about the stuff that bothers us,
we just keep quiet.

Bad for the relationship huh?
I agree, but there's nothing I can really do, I can try to talk about stuff, but i figure we'll probably just end up not talking about it.

We're both too non-confrontational.
I hate it.

Long distance relationships. What do I think of it?
It sucks.
There's no intimacy.
And there's a very big difference between talking to you on the phone and talking to you lying by my side.
There's no one to go to when I'm feeling down.

That's why I've decided, I'll not take up a job that'll take me away from you. Not even for a few days.

Sometimes, I wonder am I being silly to give up things, take up things for you. I would like to think I'm not. One person in a relationship has to give more, all that about equal relationship is bull shit. It is not attainable.

Am I the one giving more? It feels like it sometimes, but I can't be sure that is the case.

Sometimes I do wonder, what do you see in me?
I can't really see anything good in myself.
That is why I try my best to be good to you.

3 comments:

gageism said...

i'm glad the two of you had this experience. puts a lot of things into perspective.

but let me remind you that this isn't a long distance relationship.

pull yourself out of that self pity and smile
there are too many things to smile about for you two. dont waste time on these things

vivian said...

well, there's nothing equal in this world so there's no point in trying to find equality in your r/s unless you are hoping to be the one to be giving more and at the same time, wanting your partner to be aware that you r the one giving more.

If not, treasure the simple moments together. It can be fun.

Anonymous said...

miss u. will be back home soon. :)