Failure

In mandarin, they have this idiom,
Failure is the mother of sucess.

People always say:
Failure is a necessary part of life,
that we should learn from failure,
so that we can improve ourselves.

Failure can be seen as a way to better ourselves,
BUT, why do i still feel so shitty?

I want to be comforted,
i want to be told that its not my fault,
however i know that it is all my fault,
that circumstances had nothing to do with it.

The one good thing that came out of this whole fiasca,
is that i finally saw the caing side of a friend,
someone who looks as though he doesn't bother,
but in reality, he's a great guy who cares.

Writing this down has made me feel better.
it doesn't change the fact that i'm a failure,
but at least i'm a failure who has good friends.

Think i'm gonna go take a nap,
To look fresher and less like a loser
for my date later.