19 February 2006

Melancholic

Spent the whole day in a sort of a daze. Didn't manage to do anything the whole day. Just dazed and daydreamed. Feeling that I want you to be by my side to tell me that everything is alright, hoping that you're here by my side squeezing my hand.

I lost my card holder yesterday, it held my IC, my matric card, my ezlink card. Yet I wasn't upset. But i know in my heart, that if I lost either my wallet or my ring, I'll never stop blaming myself. Simply because as of today, they've been with me for 1 year 17 days, simply because they remind me of you, simply because they were given to me by a person I love. I know you wouldn't blame me, but I will.

I cleared out my closet today, I saw the letters you wrote, the postcard you sent, the magazines you gave me, the box that held the ring that's on my left hand right now, the 99 cranes, the paper bag with my old wallet still inside. The photos of us.

After thinking for the whole afternoon, I came to the realization that the only thing I can't afford to lose is you.

4 comments:

Count your Blessings said...

Basket! Ck I would have fallen for you if I am 10 yrs younger. You sweet talker! Glad you found that someone. Even happier that you are able to 'realise' things faster many other guys. Good for you. Gals, most gals, just need this. A soft word. A word of assurrance. A word that says 'I love you' without blabbing out the mere words.

gageism said...

wah
sweet but pukey

hee..

Eiji Kotaki said...

doesn't sound like the title should be "melancholic" leh. should be "sentimental" bah. hirai ken's sentimental, 知ってる?

Anonymous said...

AWwwwww sooo sweetttt, my goosebumps are bursting. Eh you can do the 3001 presentation le, so glib tongued. *sighz, what can ever dampen the feeling of love? You are hopeless now. Hopelessly in love.


godspeed