TIME: 2038hrs
DATE: 17082005
I thought I have finally gotten through, but it was just false hope.
I still hate CORS
17 August 2005
14 August 2005
Conversation on the MRT
Something that I overheard on the MRT recently.
The following conversation is an approximated translation, because the people involved were actually speaking in Chinese Chinese, something which I hesitate to reproduce.
Woman's voice: ...can't stand Singaporeans. They have to stand in front of the door while people are trying to alight, they're so inconsiderae.
Guy next to her mumurs something to her, obviously embarressed and uncomfortable at her volume and choice of topic.
Woman's irritatingly shrill voice with the properly enuciated chinese: But the people in Shanghai have to do that, otherwise they'll be unable to get onto the train...
At which point i deduced that the guy told her that it's the same in Shanghai, and stopped paying anymore attention to what she was saying as
a) I was too busy thinking whether I should turn around and speak up.
b) She stopped. ( The nasty looks from the Singaporeans surrounding probably helped to convince her to stop.
c) I was too busy thinking what a bitch she is.
d) I was thinking of how hungry I was.
I've never thought of myself as being patriotic, but she really got on my nerves. I admit that Singaporeans can learn to be more courteous on public transport, but there was no call for her to make such comments.
From my experiences, I've realised that it's a fairly common phenomenon in Asian countries. It's not a UNIQUELY SINGAPORE TRAIT. AND I do not make excuses for it.
The whole discourteous behaviour on public transport is a pet peeve of mine. But i cannot stand to hear an outsider bring it up, and to make stupid excuses for her countrymen who behave in the exact same way.
The following conversation is an approximated translation, because the people involved were actually speaking in Chinese Chinese, something which I hesitate to reproduce.
Woman's voice: ...can't stand Singaporeans. They have to stand in front of the door while people are trying to alight, they're so inconsiderae.
Guy next to her mumurs something to her, obviously embarressed and uncomfortable at her volume and choice of topic.
Woman's irritatingly shrill voice with the properly enuciated chinese: But the people in Shanghai have to do that, otherwise they'll be unable to get onto the train...
At which point i deduced that the guy told her that it's the same in Shanghai, and stopped paying anymore attention to what she was saying as
a) I was too busy thinking whether I should turn around and speak up.
b) She stopped. ( The nasty looks from the Singaporeans surrounding probably helped to convince her to stop.
c) I was too busy thinking what a bitch she is.
d) I was thinking of how hungry I was.
I've never thought of myself as being patriotic, but she really got on my nerves. I admit that Singaporeans can learn to be more courteous on public transport, but there was no call for her to make such comments.
From my experiences, I've realised that it's a fairly common phenomenon in Asian countries. It's not a UNIQUELY SINGAPORE TRAIT. AND I do not make excuses for it.
The whole discourteous behaviour on public transport is a pet peeve of mine. But i cannot stand to hear an outsider bring it up, and to make stupid excuses for her countrymen who behave in the exact same way.
10 August 2005
9 August 2005
Fireworks
I saw the fireworks,
with your head on my shoulder.
Nothing else matters,
as long as you're by my side.
with your head on my shoulder.
Nothing else matters,
as long as you're by my side.
7 August 2005
You're everything I need
You are so beautiful
To me
You are so beautiful
To me
Can't you see
You're everything I hoped for
You're everything I need
You are so beautiful to me
You are so beautiful to me
You are so beautiful
To me
Can't you see
You're everything I hoped for
You're every, everything I need
You are so beautiful to me
To me
You are so beautiful
To me
Can't you see
You're everything I hoped for
You're everything I need
You are so beautiful to me
You are so beautiful to me
You are so beautiful
To me
Can't you see
You're everything I hoped for
You're every, everything I need
You are so beautiful to me
Geeky cute?!?!
I've always known that I'm geeky or nerdish. This just confirms it.
So I'll just take it as a compliment.
I've been reading this book about the evolution of humans. An interesting part of the book is about language.
Apparently the theory proposed is that language evolved as a result of our need for socialising efficiently. It's our version of the grooming that primates do. Apparently grooming releases endorphins in primates. A similar effect is acheived in humans when they laugh.
As I read that, i realise why it's so difficult for me to socialize, I'm way too serious, i don't make people laugh. Well, except for certain people, no wonder they like me. Haha.
So, if you want people to like talking to you, make them laugh. They will want to talk to you more often without even knowing why.
So I'll just take it as a compliment.
I've been reading this book about the evolution of humans. An interesting part of the book is about language.
Apparently the theory proposed is that language evolved as a result of our need for socialising efficiently. It's our version of the grooming that primates do. Apparently grooming releases endorphins in primates. A similar effect is acheived in humans when they laugh.
As I read that, i realise why it's so difficult for me to socialize, I'm way too serious, i don't make people laugh. Well, except for certain people, no wonder they like me. Haha.
So, if you want people to like talking to you, make them laugh. They will want to talk to you more often without even knowing why.
Mysterious Skin
I went out for a movie with Jiahui and her friend from school. We watched the show "Mysterious Skin".
For those who haven' t caught it and is planning to, this might be a minor spoiler.
The show is about this two boys, Neil and Brian. They live in a small town. Neil is a hustler and Brian suffers from nightmares of an alien abduction from his boyhood and is obsessed with UFOs. Strange as it might sound, they do have something in common.
They were both victims of sexual abuse when they were boys. Actually, they suffered at the hands of the same man, their coach for their Junior league.
I believe that the film showcases the two boys in order to show the different effects that sexual abuse has.
Neil is the hustler, he fantasizes about older men and has "a black hole" where you're supposed to find his heart. His heart has already given to the coach.
Brian is UFO obsessed. He suppresses his memories in order to live a normal life. He shrouds his memories of the abuse with a story of alien abduction.
One turns homosexual, the other turns out asexual.
One revels in the memories, one suppresses them.
For those who haven' t caught it and is planning to, this might be a minor spoiler.
The show is about this two boys, Neil and Brian. They live in a small town. Neil is a hustler and Brian suffers from nightmares of an alien abduction from his boyhood and is obsessed with UFOs. Strange as it might sound, they do have something in common.
They were both victims of sexual abuse when they were boys. Actually, they suffered at the hands of the same man, their coach for their Junior league.
I believe that the film showcases the two boys in order to show the different effects that sexual abuse has.
Neil is the hustler, he fantasizes about older men and has "a black hole" where you're supposed to find his heart. His heart has already given to the coach.
Brian is UFO obsessed. He suppresses his memories in order to live a normal life. He shrouds his memories of the abuse with a story of alien abduction.
One turns homosexual, the other turns out asexual.
One revels in the memories, one suppresses them.
4 August 2005
What I'm thinking about
I'm thinking that citrus cool listerine really burns, how fat I am, and how much i wish i could just lose another 5 kg. I'm glad and worried that i'm taking japanese language lessons this coming semester. I'm also thinking about whether I'm really a good looking person or is it just because the people i know have a low criteria.
I'm also thinking about how little I've actually accomplished in my 22 years. I don't know how to play any musical instruments, nor am i good at sports, nor do i have any academic accomplishments. Socially, I'm a forced extrovert who finds it hard to make friends. I've no business acumen, not that i have the drive to start my own business. I'm still dependent on my parents for almost everything. The only thing i might be proud of is my looks and height, but I'm only an above average at best, and it's more the accomplishments of my parents than me. About the only other thing i can be proud of is that I have you.
But the conversation i had with a friend is still fresh in my mind. We got onto the topic of kids, and I said that I don't want to have kids, and he asked why. I gave the reason that kids are just a financial burden, I must have appeared like selfish prick. But i can't possibly give the actual reason why I don't forsee kids in my future. After that he asked a very good question of me, he asked whether we had common interests. I answered yes, but i wonder. I wonder how many marriages without children actually work out. I wonder if it's fair to the children to be brought into the world to become the glue in a relationship. So I'm always worried at what time might do to this relationship.
When you're a successful, beautiful and desirable lawyer, would you still want me?
I'm also thinking about how little I've actually accomplished in my 22 years. I don't know how to play any musical instruments, nor am i good at sports, nor do i have any academic accomplishments. Socially, I'm a forced extrovert who finds it hard to make friends. I've no business acumen, not that i have the drive to start my own business. I'm still dependent on my parents for almost everything. The only thing i might be proud of is my looks and height, but I'm only an above average at best, and it's more the accomplishments of my parents than me. About the only other thing i can be proud of is that I have you.
But the conversation i had with a friend is still fresh in my mind. We got onto the topic of kids, and I said that I don't want to have kids, and he asked why. I gave the reason that kids are just a financial burden, I must have appeared like selfish prick. But i can't possibly give the actual reason why I don't forsee kids in my future. After that he asked a very good question of me, he asked whether we had common interests. I answered yes, but i wonder. I wonder how many marriages without children actually work out. I wonder if it's fair to the children to be brought into the world to become the glue in a relationship. So I'm always worried at what time might do to this relationship.
When you're a successful, beautiful and desirable lawyer, would you still want me?
2 August 2005
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