Things *shrugs*

Dear Blog,

Been feeling funny lately. I'm wishing that someone can pay more attention to me, yet when I do get the attention, I wish that the attention is not on me. The person I wish would pay attention to me is not.

Feeling kind of lost lately, having too much time on hand, don't know what to do with this much time. It feels as though I'm the only person I know who is just idling my time away. Nothing constructive. Feel like a total bum.

Feeling tired from secrets. Wondering when I'll finally be free from all secrets, probably the day when i breathe my last.

Wondering about the future, knowing that I'll never be truly a part of your life. And no matter how hard I try, you seemed to remain aloof from mine. I wonder how long can this last. I guess its partly why I'm so irritable lately. Wondering what type of future we'll ever have.

Feel like just shutting myself up somewhere no one knows. Where no one can find me, but i think no one will want to find me. Don't think anyone will notice that I'm gone anyway. i think i'll just go hide in my room now.